New Year

This holiday season really just passed by without me realizing it, yes, I got to spend Christmas with family and friends, had our usual Christmas Eve dinner, the opening of gifts, Christmas day dinner spent at my sister’s and had videoke, watched the fireworks and welcomed the new year on New Year’s Eve, but somehow, the season just passed, like there’s really nothing special about it. It’s just that you’re supposed to give away gifts because its TRADITION, have to act like everything is okay, and act like you’re happy and all. Hey, don’t get me wrong, I love this time of the year, with lots of get togethers, food, and celebration. My experience the previous year, I can describe it as bittersweet.

I had lots of fun at the start of the year, it was a great kickoff! It was my first time to go to Cebu and Bohol with my best friend! Nothing can beat that! And then this guy entered my life, we dated and he became my first boyfriend. For the first time in my life, I felt really blessed, not to sound so cliché or anything but it’s like everything is really alright, I felt content, and it was a great feeling. He was a nice guy but after a short while, his love for me seemed to ebb, he was sorry and I decided to let him go. Its hard at first, because I was already used to someone being there for me and I really thought he is the "one", but as the months passed I turned out okay, I was able to "stand up for myself" again. I felt that I was stronger somehow, I even changed my image because I felt that I want a new "me". A stronger, better "me". Oh yeah, I was also promoted that time when we broke up, so the promotion was really no big deal. Then an officemate introduced me to a potential date, supposed to be "nice" and all that, but turned out to be a complete jerk! This guy thinks and talks like he’s all that! He really pissed me off and thrown me off-course, hence the last two months of the year I was in constant wallowing, because I missed my ex, because he was nice to me when we were together, I felt like, is it really hopeless to find someone better?!

And so I felt sad and empty the last two months of 2006, I was even hopeful that there’s a chance he’ll get together with me again. But in reality, I think he already has forgotten me and moved on, that’s how he is, that’s how I knew him. When he experienced something bad, he never looks back, maybe our breakup hurt him too, who knows? It’s everybody’s guess… I just realized it a few days before the year ended and decided to start anew as the year passed.
Through all these things that happened to me the past year, I still held my head high, I still feel blessed. After all, I’m glad somehow I got to experience those feelings and events that happened to me. It made me more mature and taught me how to deal with circumstances. I wouldn’t be able to learn things if I haven’t experienced them. :-)


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